Friday, April 22, 2011

GUNKET 20 Philosophies of HaPpInEsS...

GUNKET (kaki bukit) 20 Philosophies of HaPpInEsS:

1) Happy people don’t get d best of everything…they mke d most of everything…
Ingt lgi time kna repeat paper…sedih gler…but gunket always know dat it is not d end of d world yet…smgt YaKiN DiRi yg pling pnting!!...peduli hape klau kna repeat bpe bnyk kli pun…huh!!...gunket tetap yg t’pandai…=P…sbb kna repeat lah..we’ll never forget wat we learned…(errr…maybe some)…but wat matter d most is dat...we stand back up no matter how hard we fall…and dat is a real…GUNKET!!!...after all…happiness is enjoying wat u hve…and losing all desire for things beyond ur reach…=)

2) Happiness comes when u offer thanks for d troubles u don’t have...
Dis is reeaaaalllly true…I am very3 thankful when my result is C-emerlang…meaning if I get a ‘C’ grade…well…I’m thankful for not having d trouble to repeat it…heee…=)…peduli ape ngan cgpa…always yakin diri…and said: “I MADE IT!!!”...wlau pun dpat C je…huhuhu…dis cme from an experience of taking Malaysian Economy wif d most popular lecturer for dat subject…bile fikir blik…mmg btul2 n sgt2 lah bersyukur dh ‘pass’….huhuhu…wat a scary lecturer...>_<

3) Happy is d only good…d time to be happy is now…d place to be happy is here…d way to be happy is to make others so…
Peduli ape ngan kate2 org laen… d time to be happy is now…so u can sleep even klau sok pgi ade exm…d place to be happy is here…so make some noise…shout to ur heart willing…sing a song or songs out loud…and lastly…remember…d way to be happy is to mke others so…well…just by seeing us bcme so happy…won’t others be happy too???...they say dat …ketawa tue blh menjangkit kan???...=)

4) Love one another…and u’ll be happy…it is as simple and ‘as difficult’ as that…
Simple…bcoz I love my fellow gunkets…but difficult….bcoz it includes GeM…or better known as GeDeMp/BoRoI/BoYot…ngeeehhh….a new name will come out soon enough I guess..klau plan ‘nk diet’ Yot tue fail time practical nih…heee…gud luck ye YoT!!!...=)

5) To be happy for an evening…hve a party…
Jom wat konsert skrg DeB!!!...rindu nk dngr suare pety kerri…eh almk…jgn ajak YoT skali…hncur konsert tue karang…pencemaran bunyi terlebih…=P

6) If u didn’t learn to save b4 u finished studying…u’re going to be unhappy…
Thank God we made a footpatch biz…helps us…errr…a bit…huhuhu…ingt ye our promises…in 5 years time…klau tiga2 fellow gunket suffer d problem of unemployment…kta leh wat biz same2…ngeeehhh…tpi …tlg lah jgn berlaku…sape nk jdi unemployed pun…huhuhu…

7) Everytime u have an exam coming…or some other important matters…always rmmber dat…before: happy years…now: happy hours!!!!...
So klau ade exm…tdur bnyk2…mkn bnyk2…wat konsert bnyk2…check ‘current issues’ pun bnyk2…kesimpulannya…hve a good time studying!!...eh…silap2…more to… have a good time ENJOYING urselves b4 u’re being sent to grave by ur parents sbb dpt result “C-emerlang” …huhuhu…

8) To have happy days…make a fresh start every morning…
Oooppsss…kna alter ckit utk gunket…”to have happy days…mke a fresh start every AfTeRnOoN”…cm biase lah…12 p.m…bngun2 trus LUNCH…x ke bhgia btul tue…heee…=)…ptut lah gunket ade mslh DeB and GeM…dh tau dh punca nyer…=P…tpi KeReM je yg x normal kot…

9) Shared joy is double joy…shared sorrow is half sorrow…
Wif all d gunkets around…everything will be ok…wlau pun…pnas telinge dngr GeM cite pnjg sgt…stiap kli die ade cite bru…ber’bunga2’ dan jln cite nyer belok2 bnyk sgt…dan org yg mendengar plak CoNfIrM jatuh gaung…saje bunuh diri sbb xsggup 2nggu lme2 n dengr…haha…dan dEb plak ….smue nyer yg gmbire…kna ade kaitan ngan papa muk2…kErEM??...errr…mstilah kna ade kaitan ngan… “u know who”…ngeeeehhhh…


10) Planning for happiness is rarely successful…happiness just happens…

yup…btul3…ingt x YoT??...beria2 sgt plan nk g petrosains…last2…xbngun pun…but when we don’t really plan…tadaaa….dpt jmpe DiNoSaur kat Pusat Sains Negara…xprnh2 lah KeReM gna touch n go naek bus…klau mak tau nih…mau nyer kad touch n go tue kna patah2 kan into pieces…ngan pak cik2 bus tue skali ‘kena’ karang…=P…oh ye…yg plg pnting…dpt bwk blik T-REX utk fiza!!!...nme die DiNo!!!...leh tlg mkn kan fiza…cme terlewat ckit kan fiza…smpai ko kna ambik exm dlu…xpe2…pasni xyah ambik exm dh…nnti DiNo tlg ‘telan’ kan ko dlu…heee…=)

11) Happiness is not perfection… it is d ability to look beyond d imperfections…
Oh…sgt stuju…peduli hape klau rupe x lawa…in d mind and a heart of a gunket…KTA TETAP LAWA!!!...we r d BEST in everything!!!....tell me…sape leh jmpe rector ngan cool fever kat kpla??...hahaha…ok…dis is not smething u should try to do…pning kpla rector klau smue student pun wat cm tue…blh bersara awal nnti...huhuhu…

12) Horses are never unhappy bcoz they never try to impress other horses…
Sooo…dats d secret to happiness…watpe lah buang mse compare ourselves wif others…every1 is unique in their own way…we can set a goal by wanting to be as great as sme1 else…but don’ let it cloud ur mind k…remember…just be urself…sbb xde org suke hipokrit!!..if we jst be ourselves…we’ll be easily loved by others…=)…peduli ape klau DeB slalu dpt result lgi bgus dri KeRem kan??...sbb in d heart of KeReM…evry1 has their own potential…if we r not good in one thing…dat doesn’t mean we r not good in some other things…kan??...oh ye…how to avoid jealousy??...nk jeles pe mende nyer…DeB is my SiFu kot!!!...ngeeeehhhh….of coz she’ll always be greater than I am…pety kerri kot…=P

13) Happiness is having a large…caring…and close-knit family in another city…
To me…those family r d gunkets…without them…I might still be alone…dan ‘ON SUNYI’ all d time…but wif them…I’m able to forgo all those hatred and revengeful attitude of me that I had b4…and bcome a care-free person…tpi…somehow…it makes me ‘blurrr’ all d time too…hahaha…life is abt give n take huh?...u bet it is..

14) D thing dat counts most in d pursuit of happiness is choosing d rite companion..
No comment on dis…d meaning is clear enough…Hidup GUNKET!!!...huhu…

15) Those who try to drown their sorrows don’t know dat sorrows can swim…
For dis…well…don’t try to run away from ur disappointments…embrace them…wat muhasabah diri ckit…and MoVe On!!!...if u try to suppress ur sorrows…dat sorrows akan slalu timbul blik and mke u feel depress…if u can’t move on…shared it wif others…bcoz…shared sorrow is half sorrow…hve some1 to hear abt it…after all…dat’s wat frens r for…a shoulder to cry onto and a hand dat will never fail to catch u when u fall…=)

16) But sometimes d means dat produce happiness bring wif them disturbances many times greater than d happiness…
Yg nie yg xbpe stju…why?!!!...why?!!!...stiap sem pun kna tggal same bilik ngan YoT!!!...=P

17) D happiness of life is made up of little things – d little, soon forgotten acts of a kiss, a smile, a kind look or a heartfelt compliment…
Try words like: wow, pety kerri looks gorgeous!!...
Or
Fuiyoo…kerem leh maen chess srg2!!!...(silap2…bkn compliment nih…yg nie ‘gler’ nme nyer..)
Or
Perghh…bnyk nyer YoT leh mkn!!!...(ok dis is a compliment if u look at d +ve side…=P)

18) To be happy…try these for a week…live simply, expect little, give much, and remove hate from ur heart…
Btul ape…org len tension sgt2 bile exam…gunket still rlax…untiiillll …rite at d last moment…bcoz we live simply i.e. mkn bnyk n tdur bnyk2…we expect little i.e. dpt ‘C-emerlang’ kire ok ape…(ok yg nie KeReM je yg slalu wat)…hehe…and we give much…study bgai nk rak bile dh last minute…hahaha…and we remove hate from our heart…sape kate gunket benci exam…gunket Suuukeeee exam!!!...sbb leh tdur all d time…anywhere…just put d notes in front of our face…and we’ll fall asleep in no time...

19) The discovery of a new dish does more for human happiness than d discovery of a new star…
Btul3…hrmmm…ayam goreng!!!...perghhh…like wat DeB always said to us…”blh berdarah hidung!!”…so everytime we found a good n delicious ayam goreng…it felt like heaven…=P
Try to find ur own favourite dishes in another place as well…u’ll find d heaven dat we felt…huhu…

20) Learn to let go…
Do this everytime u feel upset abt smething…do this everytime a person hurts ur feelings…do this when things doesn’t go as what u’ve planned…do this in all sorts of disappointments dat u may one day face in ur life…….at d end of ur sorrow…remember…it is all about ur mindset…be +ve and learn to let it go…as d saying goes: “ u can be unhappy because roses have thorns, or u can be rejoice because thorns have roses”…u choose what u wanna think…=)..When u r in a hard time…don’t be too disappointed wif what u don’t hve…cherish all ur happy moments…no matter how small they r…bcoz…happy ppl r grateful...ungrateful ppl r never happy…it is not unhappiness dat leads ppl to complain…it is complaining too much dat makes ppl unhappy…=)


So dat’s all d philosophies of happiness dat GUNKET kaki bukit have found so far…=)

In conclusion…I’ve become dis great…I’ve reach dis far…I’ve been able to stand back up no matter how hard I fall…bcoz of all d memories of happiness dat is given to me by a bunch of frens dat I had…a bunch of frens called GUNKET…d memories of happiness gave me strength to go on living in a wreck life…bcoz I can’t stop smiling when I remembered those happy moments we had…=)

Though sometimes…we may hate each other…though sometimes we might hurt each others feelings…though sometimes we seems to stop caring about each other…BUT…in d end…when we look around…dis kind of frens r d one dat still stick to u no matter wat…no matter how hateful u’ve bcome and others might’ve complained abt it…d gunkets never fall apart…hope dat our friendship can last verrrryyyy loooonnnggg...

Takdir telah menemukan kita…biar ajal maut yg memisahkan kita…jgn pernah kta sndri yg ptuskan persahabatan nie di tngh jalan…they r d frens dat I’ll never betray... d frens dat r worth dying for…frens dat I considered as my family… Ooopsss…silap2…we r all a part of GUNKET family…hidup GUNKET!!!...ngeeehhhh…

and now…I am 20 steps ahead…dh hmpir b’jye dh in curing my depression…yea!!!...

P/s: all d inspirational sayings cme from a book named “Happiness” published by ORINA Consultancy…www.inspirationalgiftbooks.com…

Friday, April 15, 2011

CuRiNg Depression

My cause of depression is to let all d disappointments took control of my heart and filled it wif sadness…from a stressful condition…I started to be depressed…and feel as if d pain in my heart wouldn’t go away…d disappointments dat came continuously within 2 weeks…gave me a kind of shock...disappointments…and sadness…it suddenly mke me cry non-stop for d past 4 weeks…

Due to dat…I started to be quiet…I suddenly found d things dat used to be enjoyable seems boring…I started to get away from most of my frens…started to tke a break from my family…didn’t go home at all…and I just wanted to go far away from where I am….my feelings were hurt so badly dat I can’t even smile...and I get irritated at every single things…I started to feel angry…about everything…and d most important part is dat…I started to hate my life…and hate it d way dat I ended up in dis kind of state…

But after a while…I realized dat I can’t be in dis state forever…a change is needed…and I need to change…I can’t be depressed forever…

I should let it all go…let d pain and disappointments go far away…I can’t let it haunts me and mke me feel sad all d time…there’s nothing wrong wif all d disappointments dat I went through…no matter how bad it hurts my feelings…i must always remember dat it is all part of life…xkan ade manusia yg x diuji dgn ujian…wat matter d most is how we overcome it…and stay strong no matter wat…

I once heard dat…we shouldn’t think like we’re d only one in pain…everyone lives holding onto some kind of pain…either way…they try their best to live life looking forward…so don’t give up our future…

Therefore…I know now dat I should go on wif my life…regardless of how badly hurt I am…d future is out there waiting for me…and my actions now will determine how happy I will be in future...like wat my councellor said to me…since d world is round…so…in order to feel happy again is to mke others happy first…then maybe…someday later…it’ll cme to us back…and we’ll once again feel happy…so I think dat is wat I should strive for…as for now…

D drkness dat crept over my life…wouldn’t stay forever…one day…d sky will be clear…and d sun will shine again…d sadness dat i feel now…is a temporary matter, for it will, one day, be gone...I’m going to start smiling again…cherish others…and mke them happy…in hope dat I’ll be happy too…in future…and dis depression of which I am in now…will be gone forever…

Let d pains dat we get from all of d disappointments in our life be a history…and don’t€ ever let it be wif us forever…don’t let it become our present life for too long…and don’t ever let it become our future too…
I mke a mistake dis time by falling into d trap of depression…but I’ll mke sure dat I won’t repeat it again…ever…let dis be a lesson for me…so dat I can stay strong…even though I know dat I’m all alone…

Feeling a lil bit better now…and hoping dat I’ll be fully recovered from dis depression as soon as possible…sooo…yup…keep smiling no matter wat…=)

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

i hate HoLiDaYz...

I hate HoLiDaYz...

1) I couldn’t get out of d house on my own…everywhere I go…my parents will follow me around…like I’m a 6 yrs old kid…

2) I don’t get to hang out wif my frens…bcoz my parents won’t allow it…unless they can join us and sit together wif us…of which will take out all d fun of hanging out wif frens…no wonder I’ll be an antisocial girl when it comes to holidayz…

3) D broadband internet connection would be soooo damn slow…so I won’t be able to connect to d world outside…I can’t chat wif my frens or download new songs…it doesn’t make sense at all…living at the heart of d city…KL…and still hve a slow internet connection…

4) I won’t be able to take a morning walk as usual…I won’t be able to look at the sunrise…

5) I’ll be trapped inside my room all day…

6) I hve nothing to do…I don’t even hve d chance to do some cleaning in d house…bcoz my home is like a store…

7) I won’t be able to be myself…I can’t sing…can’t exercise freely…can’t laugh much…and will just keep quiet and be serious for d rest of d holidays…

8) I won’t be able to express myself or give any opinion on things…bcoz…my mom will do all d talking…we’ll just hve to hear it out until we lost our insanity…

9) I can’t plan abt anything at all…all d schedule throughout d holiday must follow my parents schedule…well…dat mkes sense…bcoz they won’t allow me to go out on my own…so if I wanna do anything outside…I’ll hve to “fit into” their schedule…which makes me feel old…really old…bcoz I will be trapped in d hse…and dat mkes me feel more sick…

10) I will be more depressed…so…no surprise if one day u hear a news abt me committing suicide…bcoz even now…I talk abt death like almost all d time…d councellor dat I went to see…dat is a useless effort I say…not helping at all…she won’t be wif me when I need her…well…why would she?…I’m just a total stranger asking for her help after all…

11) I can't do my religious duty peacefully…I dunno why…it seems weird for me to read d Quran when I’m at home…it feels even weird if I do extra prayers…solat sunat and all…and on top of anything…I’ll be condemned abt how I dressed up…can’t wear jubah wif tudung labuh…or even just tudung labuh...(unless if its ramadhan)…hrrmmm…no wonder I always feel like I want to give up trying…and just be a modern person…focus only on d worldly matters…terlalu bnyk dugaan utk nk jdi baek…and most of dat cme from my own family…

12) i also hate holidays for d reason dat even if my family and i go for a vacation...i can't choose where i wanna visit...so i find vacation quite stressful at times...

13) I hate holidayz d most…bcoz I feel lonely every seconds, every mins, every hours, days, weeks and months…and even years…bcoz I’m not dat close to my family…we r a family…but we don’t feel connected at all…


well...after much thinking…maybe all of this are not d reason of why I hate holidays…but this are more to the reasons why I hate my HoMe…my home is UIA and …I don’t wanna go back to my house!!!…end of story…=(


p/s: how am i gonna survive living at home for d next 4 months bcoz of my practical training???...hrrrmmm...

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Depression...

Major depression???
How can i end up in dis kind of state?
When did it even started?
D sadness r killing me...
D tears won't stop flowing...

My heart aches so much...
As if it is breaking to pieces...

When did d smile fade away?
How did i become so serious and easily irritated?
Feeling angry and revengeful even to those who r nice to me...

When did i starts to shut myself out from others?
Stopping all interaction wif others?

I feel restless...
Sleep is just too hard for me...
It seems like dis black hole i'm in...
Would not move away...
Maybe i'll be trapped inside it forever...

Crying for help is of no use...
No one is close enough to me...
To even hear it...
Let alone understand me...
Or to know in wat kind of situation i'm in...

If there's just one more person who hurts my feelings...
Then i'm not sure whether i'll be able to survive dis life...

All d disappointments surely r a killer...
Killing all my hopes and dreams in life...
When will dis end?

I just need someone to hear me out...
Be wif me...
Comfort me...
And say dat everything will be alright...

But then...
When i look around...
There's simply nobody to reach out to...
D feeling of insecurity will just build up everyday...

Seems like d depression dat i'm in...
will not cure at all...
There's simply no end to dis...
Because no one is wif me to help me to go through dis...