Saturday, March 26, 2011

FaTe...

I am submitting to the judgment of fate...
Which at one time is favourable and at another...antagonistic...
~Ibn Khaldun


The sayings of Ibn Khaldun are totally true...the fate is at one point gives us the happiness...but after a while...the happiness will vanish...and all of a sudden...disappointments starts to appear...

fate...no matter what we do...or how hard we try...if it is determined to be dat way...there's nothing we can do to change it....

FAMILY???...

Just for one second...i thought i could have a normal, happy family again...but then again...at the turn of fate...i was being disappointed...the dysfunctional things in my family couldn't get better...maybe it is supposed to be dat way forever...

and i keep on believing that there must be some reasons i.e. hikmah behind it...bcoz only by having dat belief in me...dat i can go on wif my life...and have some hope to hold on to....

HEALTH???...

after years of sufferings...endless meetings wif the wrong doctor...and consumed the wrong medicine...i finally came to d last point in the search for a better life...

i guess wat ppl have been saying all dis while is true...we must alwayz go for a 'second opinion' if we're dealing wif doctors...cause the first doctor judgment might be wrong...

and yea...it is sooo wrong in my case...however...i'm glad dat i finally went to HKL...government hospital is much better than all those private hospitals dat i went to...

10th March 2011 gives me d best bday present ever...i've been discharged from all departments dat i went to at HKL...and i am totally fine and healthy again...

thus, bcoz of dat...i've been able to held up my head again...and said dat
"I'm OK"...and dis time...when i said dat...i meant it...i truly meant it...

so there goes another turn of fate...just when i thought my health are getting worst...some miracles happened...and it gives me a chance to live happily...

and for some reason...i found dat d world has suddenly became more wonderful than ever...

FRIENDS???...

frens come and go...many frens r not dat sincere to be wif u...they say dat they will alwayz be beside u...but when u need them d most...they just dissappear...

lots of frens...have disappoint me...and i don't blame them...bcoz i might not be a gud fren to them either...

but thank God...bcoz of my sickness...bcoz of my fate...i am able to find out who are my true frens...who are those dat alwayz be wif me at all time...giving me some courage to live...cheer me up when i'm down...and doesn't care much abt my 'bad mud' tantrum...

they r d kind of frens dat i'll forever appreciate d most...d kind of frens dat will alwayz stood up for u and be wif u no matter what...i can't thank them enough...

and of course...as alwayz...my top frens will forever be d one dat i called "GUNKET"...d name dat i'll never forget...


Thus...all in all...fate...is not something dat we can decide...we can only try our best in our life...but sometimes...if it is meant to be dat way...we must alwayz try to accept it...

and bcoz of fate...i do believed dat...ALLAH is alwayz wif me...tq Allah for all d help and happiness dat YOU have given me when i'm down...each time when i'm down...it is YOU dat gave me some happiness...so dat i'm able to stop crying and smile for a while...

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

9th March 2011

people do change time after time...i think dis is d time for me to change...i can't go on writing poems when wat i actually feels at dis moment is just an accumulated pieces of disappointments in my life...